生活真的有这么容易。。？还是真的那么难。。？

我的生活。。
好乱。。。
无奈。。。
我真的想要很努力赚钱。。。
可是我越想。。就越觉得辛苦。。。
我只想找一份我喜欢又能赚钱的工作。。
有这么难吗。。？
发型师。。
名字好听。。
工钱少得可怜。。
工作时间长的可悲。。
应该继续做下去吗。。？
问朋友。。
他们都说“你喜欢就好”
               “不做的话，那你为何当初进这一行？”
               “你当初的梦想呢。？

               “转行咯”
                “做office工”

拜托。。。
我头都大了。。
最近不懂做么这么倒。。
什么都做不好。。。
我的Mr io
应该对我“死心”了吧。。
好现实的社会。。


不怕。。
请不要太看的起我。。
我不是女超人。。
不是什么都能做到很好。。
我一定要从新计划我的“路”
走该走的路。。。

跳舞。。
我几时才可以再次跳舞。。？
好失败。。。。
：（（（（（（

Laz nite ..

hmmmm...
laz nite bowling was fun...
hahx..
so sorry to let u teach such a stupid student like "me" to play bowling...
its a nice experience....
few years ago i ever play bowling and that time i really like bowling..
but don't know why and what reason..
i stop it and started to hate it...
luckily i can overcome d "unlike", "hate"..
and accompany u for d bowling..
thanks ya..
for teaching me..:)


i shouldn't say all that "stupid" things laz nite...
its my problem...
a problem that i still cant overcome..
its really happy when we play and fool around...
:):):)
lets solve d problem together...

if i say" i love u" then i mean it♥.

if i say"i love u" then i mean it♥.
if i say "i like u" maybe i haven't really fall in love...
if i say" i hate u" tats not real...
if i say "i miss u" i really miss u badly....
if i say " thank you" ....i really appreciate u..
if i say"up to u"..means i let u make decision...
if i say " see first" ..i just need time to think...
if  i say "u r great"...that's mean i admire u..


nothing more important than i "precious" u......
大笨猪。。。

我需要一个星期收拾我的心情。。

mr io
对不起。。
你一定觉得我很“难搞”
我需要一点点时间重新整理我的思绪。。
之后我一定会继续努力的。。。

古晋和吉隆坡的生活方式很不一样。。
那边的人生活很轻松。。
没有压力。。
做事情也不喜欢匆匆忙忙。。

我承认回去时，我并没有认真努力的做。。。
因为。。
没有原因（任何原因都是自己给自己的借口）
所以我也不需要给你任何理由。。
那都是无谓的。。
我也很想像你们那样成功。。

我真的想。。
但是我所知道的东西有限。。
跟大老板谈。。我会紧张。。。
或许我不够自信。。
清给我在一年里面训练出自己的个人风格。。。
一年后，我保证我可以做得比现在更好。。

在这行我学会了所谓的责任感。。
也懂得如何以别人沟通。。
五年没见的朋友说我变了。。
他们说我没有选错行。。
因为他们看到我的改变。。
变自信。。
爱讲话。。

哈哈。。。
这是好事。。
但我觉得还不够好。。
我会继续加油的。。。

its such a complicated feeling..

Dar Dar..
u had suddenly entered into my life..
omg..
i cant believed that we meet in such a way..
and everything just happened so fast...
i had such a complicated feeling towards you..
a feeling that cant be described..

i just don't even really know u and understand about u..
ya..
i m not prepared yet..
to be a girlfriend..
my problem..
first of all...
u r really like my fren
d way u express ur feeling..
ur planning about future...

maybe..
i really need someone by my side...
but is it "boyfriend"?
i also cant answer this question.
i m afraid to fall deep inside a relationship..

i will lost my characteristic..
i just wanna be well prepared before starting a relationship.
i m sure i don't really understand about u..
u too right...?
its sweet to be with someone u love..
but its tough to maintain a relationship..

a relationship should start not because of loneliness...
that's not love.. 

for someone special...

d reason why i wrote this ..
because i want u to know what i m thinking..:)
u r good...
our "meet" r such special and memorable..
^^

u r nice...
i sense that....(my 6th sense)hahx..
give my time,k..?
i m worrying...
as u know ..
i hope that that's not puppy love between us..

give us time to prove ourself..
no matter in career or in our relationship...
i hope to"fight"together with my"dar dar"..
success in career..
and can have true love..
give urself time to make clear about ur feeling,k..?

i want someone true...
someone serious..
someone that really treat me good...
desperate in seeing u again after i come back...

a miracle and suprise night^^

i never thought that i could be so lucky...
and this never happened in my whole life ..
it was such a miracle...
when i know there will be a lucky draw..
i didn't put in heart..
cuz i know i cant be that lucky..

when d singer announced d lucky number just after u say.
"see whether we got fate today"
i was just looking at d lucky draw number..
until d last number ..
i was shocked and cant believe that we really so lucky...
and i was really happy...

its a miracle...

it was really a nice memory..
really thanks about it...
hope d "bear" can give me good luck^^
i wont forget it:)

i must be prepared b4 i start d game again..

Mr io..
i m sorry..
yesterday speaker really was not helping me..
i fell into a deep consideration which i must make it clearly...
before i start any futher discussion with u...

what i can just tell is i wont give up..
dont worry about that..
but i need time to clear my mind...
i wont let u down..
wont let my family down..
i want to be the top...
not just saying only..
but do it...

thats what i want ..
but i want to prepare
in facing all these....:)

突然间迷路了。。

突然间觉得很辛苦，，
家人啊家人。。
我不是神。。。
我也有觉得辛苦的时候。。
在这个年龄。。
我没有同龄人的快乐。。
只有奋斗，赚钱。。
虽然是我自愿的。。
但是有时有些小事。。
你们可以不可以自己处理。。

我努力的成长。。
努力让自己更进步。。
但有时我不知道。。
我为了谁。。？
为了家人。。？
为了自己？
为了面子？

老天爷。。
我可以做不平凡的平凡人吗。。？
我好累。。
可是又不想放弃。。
我已经没有那种想要去玩的心了。。
有的只是工作=娱乐。。
够变态吧。。？

pj agency ^^thanks..

a lot of thank you and appreciation to pj agency..
a place which brought me grew up....
in many ways...
i learnt a lot  a lot of things from there...
get to know many "powerful" and "superchiever"
found my dream..
and fighting for it...
i want to success..
really desperate in it...
i know i can do it and i will do it..

my gsm huey meei..
at first ,i really cant accepted her style in work..
in training up new agent..
i feel stress and cant overcome that..
i even think to escape and give up....

luckily i didn't..
i stay..
i told myself....
"if really want to do well in"insurance and financial,
u must really focus and be the best.."
if don"t want,then just let go now..
better than wasting time..

MR io..kenny tan..
you are my“伯乐”
haha
at first i also suspect myself whether i really suit this line or not..
but now..
i can tell you..
i like it and i enjoy it..
nothing is impossible if u really want to do...

fighting for top rookie..
i want to win..
GOD...please help me...
i want to success...
wee fon is a very dedicated girl...
i learnt a lot from her too...
v strong...
admire^^

kelly wong
v charming girl..
mdrt...
how i wish i can be like her one day....
:)
mei ling,tik wei,and others all are great people...
they are successful ...
always encouraging new agent...
taught us many things....
really thank you....

so power?so influence?

WOW...
WA...
AM I SO POWERFUL????
NOW I JUST KNOW I CAN INFLUENCE WHOLE FAMILY TO HATE ME...
ADMIRE^^''
SURPRISING WITH MY POWER...
HAHAHHA
I LOOK SO BRILLIANT? SO SUCCESS?
TILL YOU ALL SCARE ABOUT ME..
AFRAID THAT I WILL SURPASS YOUR DAUGHTER...?
WAKE UP U GUYS...
IF YOUR DAUGHTER REALLY INDEPENDENT AND CAN SUCCESS
THEN NOTHING NEED TO BE WORRY...
I JUST A LITTLE GIRL...^^
YOUR DAUGHTER ALREADY 25 YEARS OLD...
PLUS U GUYS...
TOTALLY AROUND TWO HUNDRED YEARS OLD...
WHY WANT TO FIGHT WITH ME..?
I AM NOT GOD...
HAHA
THANKS FOR PUTTING ME IN SUCH HIGH POSITION...
FUCK U GUYS..
CHILDISH FAMILY...
STUPID..
SO SCARE I WILL "RAMPAS"
YOU GUYS"BAO BEI"
DON'T WORRY...
I DON'T WANT....!!!!!!
IF U GUYS LIKE,
JUST TAKE IT AND KEPT IN SAFETY BOX..
IF NOT, HE WILL RUN AWAY AGAIN
AND COME BACK TO MY SIDE..
HA HA