if i say" i love u" then i mean it♥.

if i say"i love u" then i mean it♥.
if i say "i like u" maybe i haven't really fall in love...
if i say" i hate u" tats not real...
if i say "i miss u" i really miss u badly....
if i say " thank you" ....i really appreciate u..
if i say"up to u"..means i let u make decision...
if i say " see first" ..i just need time to think...
if  i say "u r great"...that's mean i admire u..


nothing more important than i "precious" u......
大笨猪。。。

我需要一个星期收拾我的心情。。

mr io
对不起。。
你一定觉得我很“难搞”
我需要一点点时间重新整理我的思绪。。
之后我一定会继续努力的。。。

古晋和吉隆坡的生活方式很不一样。。
那边的人生活很轻松。。
没有压力。。
做事情也不喜欢匆匆忙忙。。

我承认回去时，我并没有认真努力的做。。。
因为。。
没有原因（任何原因都是自己给自己的借口）
所以我也不需要给你任何理由。。
那都是无谓的。。
我也很想像你们那样成功。。

我真的想。。
但是我所知道的东西有限。。
跟大老板谈。。我会紧张。。。
或许我不够自信。。
清给我在一年里面训练出自己的个人风格。。。
一年后，我保证我可以做得比现在更好。。

在这行我学会了所谓的责任感。。
也懂得如何以别人沟通。。
五年没见的朋友说我变了。。
他们说我没有选错行。。
因为他们看到我的改变。。
变自信。。
爱讲话。。

哈哈。。。
这是好事。。
但我觉得还不够好。。
我会继续加油的。。。

its such a complicated feeling..

Dar Dar..
u had suddenly entered into my life..
omg..
i cant believed that we meet in such a way..
and everything just happened so fast...
i had such a complicated feeling towards you..
a feeling that cant be described..

i just don't even really know u and understand about u..
ya..
i m not prepared yet..
to be a girlfriend..
my problem..
first of all...
u r really like my fren
d way u express ur feeling..
ur planning about future...

maybe..
i really need someone by my side...
but is it "boyfriend"?
i also cant answer this question.
i m afraid to fall deep inside a relationship..

i will lost my characteristic..
i just wanna be well prepared before starting a relationship.
i m sure i don't really understand about u..
u too right...?
its sweet to be with someone u love..
but its tough to maintain a relationship..

a relationship should start not because of loneliness...
that's not love.. 

for someone special...

d reason why i wrote this ..
because i want u to know what i m thinking..:)
u r good...
our "meet" r such special and memorable..
^^

u r nice...
i sense that....(my 6th sense)hahx..
give my time,k..?
i m worrying...
as u know ..
i hope that that's not puppy love between us..

give us time to prove ourself..
no matter in career or in our relationship...
i hope to"fight"together with my"dar dar"..
success in career..
and can have true love..
give urself time to make clear about ur feeling,k..?

i want someone true...
someone serious..
someone that really treat me good...
desperate in seeing u again after i come back...

a miracle and suprise night^^

i never thought that i could be so lucky...
and this never happened in my whole life ..
it was such a miracle...
when i know there will be a lucky draw..
i didn't put in heart..
cuz i know i cant be that lucky..

when d singer announced d lucky number just after u say.
"see whether we got fate today"
i was just looking at d lucky draw number..
until d last number ..
i was shocked and cant believe that we really so lucky...
and i was really happy...

its a miracle...

it was really a nice memory..
really thanks about it...
hope d "bear" can give me good luck^^
i wont forget it:)

i must be prepared b4 i start d game again..

Mr io..
i m sorry..
yesterday speaker really was not helping me..
i fell into a deep consideration which i must make it clearly...
before i start any futher discussion with u...

what i can just tell is i wont give up..
dont worry about that..
but i need time to clear my mind...
i wont let u down..
wont let my family down..
i want to be the top...
not just saying only..
but do it...

thats what i want ..
but i want to prepare
in facing all these....:)

突然间迷路了。。

突然间觉得很辛苦，，
家人啊家人。。
我不是神。。。
我也有觉得辛苦的时候。。
在这个年龄。。
我没有同龄人的快乐。。
只有奋斗，赚钱。。
虽然是我自愿的。。
但是有时有些小事。。
你们可以不可以自己处理。。

我努力的成长。。
努力让自己更进步。。
但有时我不知道。。
我为了谁。。？
为了家人。。？
为了自己？
为了面子？

老天爷。。
我可以做不平凡的平凡人吗。。？
我好累。。
可是又不想放弃。。
我已经没有那种想要去玩的心了。。
有的只是工作=娱乐。。
够变态吧。。？